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I HATE IT WHEN YOU MISUNDERSTAND MY EXPRESSIONS

DO YOU KNOW THAT I CAN'T EXPRESS MYSELF PROPERLY WHY DON'T YOU LET ME EXPLAIN BUT NO YOU DON'T CARE RIGHT COZ I'M YOUR DAUGHTER SO I CAN'T FIGHT BACK! I'M NOT HARD-HEADED ! WHEN I MAKE DECISIONS I DOUBLE THINK IF I SHOULD DO IT OR NOT COZ I WILL WHAT WILL YOU REACT AFTER I'VE DONE IT. DO YOU KNOW HOW MAY I ATTEMPTED TO KILL MYSELF OR TO RUN AWAY HOME BUT NO I STOPPED MYSELF COZ I DON'T WANT TO WAIST MY LIFE AND BESIDE I HAVE NOWHERE TO GO!!!    YOU'RE TOO CLOSE MINDED ! OPEN UP PLEASE DO YOU KNOW WHAT I DO AFTER YOU SCOLD? I CRY BUT NOT IN FRONT OF YOU NEVER! I HOLD IT BACK ITS HARD TO HOLD IT BACK ITS LIKE I'M GOING TO EXPLODE!!!! BUT HELL YOU DON'T FUCKING CARE!!!!!!!! BUT I CAN'T BE MAD AT YOU COZ EVEN  IF I TURN THE WORLD UPSIDE DOWN YOU WILL STILL BE MY MOTHER..................I'M SAD BECAUSE YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND ME NOW I KNOW HOW MY COUSIN FEELS I GUESS WERE ON THE SAME BOAT.................................
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Upcoming fic! after i finish HMH i came up with this fic during our chemistry class this is a collaboration fic with my friend please anticipate it~

HELLO MY HONEY ch. 4

 pairings: Haehyuk and other SJ pairings
genre: school life, romance,smut
rating: R / NC-17
disclaimer: i own NOTHING except the plot ^_^

 

DONGHAE POV
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i was awakened by the movement on my arms i groaned as i open my eyes and saw this beautiful creature in my arms finding a comforting position. Ah hyukkie finally i have you you don't know how broken i was when you left me. i'm not going to let you go ever. then i kissed my hyukkie's forehead it seemed to awaken him up.

''morning babe''i said to him and kiss his eyes.

''........................''

'' why aren't you talkng?'' i asked i was about to hug him but he moved away. but before he can do so i grabbed his wrist and gave him a bone crushing hug.

''don't try to escape coz you won't be able to, why can't you remember me monkey ''

''i don't know you''  he said to me it made my heart ache i miss his love for me but i will wait. i glanced at my clock and shit! it's already 7:30 our school starts at 8.

''hyukkie we have to go now.'' i said to hi in a hurried tone but he just looked at me confusely.

''to school where else unless youwant to stay here do some things with me~'' i said in my seductive tone i saw him shivered before i can touch him he sprinted towards the bathroom ahh my hyukkie is so cute. Gah i forgot to call minnie hyung.

''yoboseyo''

''hyung~ how are you and that brother of hyukkie?'' i asked him.

''oh! were doing fine were getting along'' he said.

''chinja?!'' i asked in disbelief.

''yeah.........bye got to go kyunnie's waiting for me see you at school''  minnie hyung said and then he hang up then i saw my hyukkie emerging from the bathroom wearing our school uniform man he's so hot well before any dirty thoughts come into my head i grabbed him by the hand and intertwine our fingers and dragged him out of my house and into my car.

''is my hyung going to be there?'' my hyukkie asked me.

''of course baby'' i saw him blush with my words.

we were near our school when i spot sungmin hyung with that brother of my hyukkie, i parked my carand stepped out and went to the side of hyukkie and helphim to get out of my car. right after stepping out of my car hyukkie spotted his brother i saw happiness in his eyes i wish those eyes will look at me. he ran to hsi brother and hugged him tight i saw his brother ruffled his hair. i followed after him.

''come on hyukjae we have to go.'' i said to him.

''but i want to talk to my hyung'' he whined like a kid ahhh so cute i let him off and went to sungmin hyung.

''so.....hyung how did the two of you got along?'' i asked out of curiosity.

 

SUNGMIN's POV

''so hyung how did the two of you got along?'' my dongsaeng asked me.

''well..........''
 

FLASH BACK

after going home i asked one of my guards to carry him to my room i laid him on my bed and waited for him to wake up after a few hours he's awake but before i can anything he grabbed me and pinned  me on my own bed with my hands above my head locked with his hand.

''tell me where the hell is my brother?'' he askedme in a calm voice but i felt anger in it.

''well he's with my cousin''

''i don't trust that cousin if yours the way he looked at my brother was like he was some food for  him to eat.''

''I.DON'T.CARE i'm your master you obey me!'' i shouted at him. but instead of getting an answer he kissed me and bit my lip i gasped at what he did he danced his tongue in my mouth and sucked on my tongue i let out a moan after some minutes he broke away and said.

''i can't agree to that you can be the master but i control this relationship okay~''

i gave him my who-the-hell-do-you-think-you-are look he just chuckled at me and let go of my and hands and sit on the chair beside my bed and took his psp out and played his.

end of FLASH BACK

''well...................its a long strory'' i lied to him.

''ohhh ok well better get back to my hyukkie bye~'' then he left me.

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Before and Now [one shot]

 pairing: haehyuk
genre: romance , high school
disclaimer: I own NOTHING except for the story

Donghae's POV

Before i only see the colors black and white

Before SHE was the color of my world

Before i loved HER

Before i only see HER

Before  my friends say that we are cute together

Before i only cared for you 

But why? 

How can you  do this to me?

SHE left me 

I thought we were ok but it turns out that she likes another
 
''how can you do this to me? i loved you? i thought you loved me?'' i asked HER.

'' i don't love you'' SHE replied in a cold tone.

''then why did accept my loved no that's not right did you EVER accepted my love?'' i said i was now on the verge of crying.

''i only used you i like someone else i used you to get close to him.'' SHE said.

''who is the guy?'' i asked.

''Han Changhee'' SHE said.

''my goal keeper?!''i asked in disbelief.

''i'm sorry donghae but i didn't love you from the beginning i only acted'' SHE said then she turned her back on me and left on the fields with a broken SHE doesn't care about it. I finally let my tears flow out.

After the my unfortunate event i went to that Changhee and smacked him real hard. I didn't care about my friends or people that was stopping me i only stopped when i saw him crying. I left the school early. 

Before i locked my self in my room 

Before i have no reason to go out

Before i didn't listen to my friends concerns
 
''hae-ah come out please you need to eat'' leeteuk hyung said while banging my door.

''GO AWAY! LEAVE ME ALONE!'' i shouted back. then i heard heechul hyung talking.

''LEE DONGHAE COME OUT THIS INSTANT! YOU'VE BEEN LOCKING YOURSELF IN THERE FOR WEEKS IF YOU ODN'T COME OUT OR ELSE I SWEAR I WILL FUCKING KICK YOUR DOOR OPEN! 1.....2......'' before heechul hyung can continue counting i heard hangeng hyung stopping him.

''chul-ah stop this let him be''

''i can't hannie my dongsaeng has been in their for a week! A FUCKING WHOLE WEEK!'' he screamed.

''i know i'll talk to him''

''hae-ah open the door let's talk'' i opened the door not to wide just enough  to let hangeng hyung to fit in and come inside.

''' it's no use'''

Before i didn't care about the persons around me.

Before i was incomplete.
 
'' i'm sorry'' a guy said at me cause i bumped into him.

but NOW i only see HIM.

'' it's ok'' i said i was mesmerized by the beauty in front of me his red hair contrasted with his milky skin and plump lips.

 
''ok if you say so'' he replied his voice was like music to my ears
 
''what's your name?'' i asked.
 
''Lee Eunhyuk''
 
''Lee donghae....want to meet sometime?''
 
''yeah sure see you around hae'' then he left i was smiling like an idiot after he left .

Now i can see colors.

Now i love HIM

Now i only see HIM

Now my friends says that we look PERFECT together.

Now i only care for you.

Now i no longer lock myself up in my room.

Now i listen to my friends.

Now i have the reason to go out and that reason him HIM.


''what are you thinking about hae-ah?''' my lover asked me.

'''nothing''

''ok if you say so happy 3rd anniversary hae saranghae''

''i love you too''

Now i am complete.


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Before and Now [one shot]

 pairing: haehyuk
genre: romance , high school
disclaimer: I own NOTHING except for the story

Donghae's POV

Before i only see the colors black and white

Before SHE was the color of my world

Before i loved HER

Before i only see HER

Before  my friends say that we are cute together

Before i only cared for you 

But why? 

How can you  do this to me?

SHE left me 

I thought we were ok but it turns out that she likes another
 
''how can you do this to me? i loved you? i thought you loved me?'' i asked HER.

'' i don't love you'' SHE replied in a cold tone.

''then why did accept my loved no that's not right did you EVER accepted my love?'' i said i was now on the verge of crying.

''i only used you i like someone else i used you to get close to him.'' SHE said.

''who is the guy?'' i asked.

''Han Changhee'' SHE said.

''my goal keeper?!''i asked in disbelief.

''i'm sorry donghae but i didn't love you from the beginning i only acted'' SHE said then she turned her back on me and left on the fields with a broken SHE doesn't care about it. I finally let my tears flow out.

After the my unfortunate event i went to that Changhee and smacked him real hard. I didn't care about my friends or people that was stopping me i only stopped when i saw him crying. I left the school early. 

Before i locked my self in my room 

Before i have no reason to come out

Before i didn't listen to my friends concerns
 
''hae-ah come out please you need to eat'' leeteuk hyung said while banging my door.

''GO AWAY! LEAVE ME ALONE!'' i shouted back. then i heard heechul hyung talking.

''LEE DONGHAE COME OUT THIS INSTANT! YOU'VE BEEN LOCKING YOURSELF IN THERE FOR WEEKS IF YOU ODN'T COME OUT OR ELSE I SWEAR I WILL FUCKING KICK YOUR DOOR OPEN! 1.....2......'' before heechul hyung can continue counting i heard hangeng hyung stopping him.

''chul-ah stop this let him be''

''i can't hannie my dongsaeng has been in their for a week! A FUCKING WHOLE WEEK!'' he screamed.

''i know i'll talk to him''

''hae-ah open the door let's talk'' i opened the door not to wide just enough  to let hangeng hyung to fit in and come inside.

''' it's no use'''

Before i didn't care about the persons around me.
Before i was in complete.
 
'' i'm sorry'' a guy said at me cause i bumped into him.

but NOW i only see HIM.

'' it's ok'' i said i was mesmerized by the beauty in front of me his red hair contrasted with his milky skin and plump lips.


''ok if you say so'' he replied his voice was like music to my ears

''what's your name?'' i asked.

''Lee Eunhyuk''

''Lee donghae....want to meet sometime?''

''yeah sure see you around hae'' then he left i was smiling like an idiot after he left.
 
Now  i can see colors ever since i met HIM i can all the colors around me no longer black and white.

Now HE is the color of my world.

Now i love HIM.

Now i only see HIM.

Now my friends says that we are PERFECT for each other.
 
Now i only care for you.

Now i no longer lock my self in my room.

Now i care for the people around me.
 
Now i have the reason to come out and that reason is HIM.


'' hae what are you thinking about?'' my lover asked me.

''nothing'' 

''ok if you say so happy 3rd anniversary hae-ah saranghae''

'i love you to hyukkie''

Now i'm complete i promise to HIM with all my heart.
 
 
 
 
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HELLO MY HONEY ch. 3

(A/N: after idk for how many weeks i will update this~)




Flash back~

"ehhh?! WHAT IS HE PLANNING TO ME?

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HYUKJAE'S POV~

his hands traveled to the buttons of my uniform opening them one by one after opening hi brushed his fingers over my exposed nipple i moaned at the feeling it was new to me all of it

"ahhhh" i moaned as he palmed my erection that was still confined inside my pants i was breathing in pants.

"you know hyukkie i've been searching for you for a long time already do you know that?" hae asked me. what is he saying? i know him? i haven't meet him yet except for this time.


"i fulfilled my promise to you hyukkie i found you at last." he said with a low voice. promise?....my dream was he that boy...i don't know what to think anymore..... then he suddenly took off my pants with my boxers in one swift movement now i was complete exposed to him he flipped me over so i was now on fours but he pushed my down so i was face down while my ass was in the air and i swear i saw an evil smirk on his face than i felt a cold liquid that was poured on my hole. I felt fingers probe my insides scissoring and stretching it apart.

DONGHAE'S POV~


finally i have him i searched for him my hyukkie i know he doesn't remember me YET
but i don't care when all i know is i want him now so i got a lubed from the drawer beside my bed i opened the cap and poured it on hyukkie's pinkhole i pushed on of my fingers and kept scissoring and stretching him apart then he asked me something.

"aahhh.d-donghae isn't this weird two guys fucking each other?: he asked. it got me to think but hell i don't care all i know is I WANT HIM NOW with that i took i fingers out and replaced it with my cock and gave him a hard thrust i kept thrusting inside of him in and out then i saw tears flowing from his eyes then it striked me why am i doing this i'm suppose to protect him not to hurt him i stopped my thrustings and bend down to hug him and said sorry to him.

"i'm so sorry hyukkie" i pulled out of him and pulled him to my embrace and covered ourselves with my blanket and dozed of to dreamland.


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